"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions"-Murakami on Kafka on The Shore
Here's a year of something new happens; a bullying from strangers, the sudden decrease of my academic performance and my ability, letting go of a start-up with a dream team inside, broke my phone and so does the communication with my old friends, my old communities. Moreover, my favorite lecturer starts to underestimate me, losing the trust by something unnecessary, and another uncommon issue that I was not expecting at all.
The image starts to rotate. From Hasna the good girl into that messy student from Bandung. I was blaming myself for this, regretting something that I did so these problems could happen. Drown in insecurity and anxiety almost every night. Until one day, something inside me slap another side of me; "Hey, it's not you! wake up!!"
As soon as I realize, those negative things coming along with so many gooood things in return. Something that I finally grateful of. As they said, after rain comes sunshine, the life is always in balance, and that I don't need to worry too much.
I have learned that no matter how kind and good you are, there's always someone--or even some people that will not like you. As in reverse, you might be done something wrong--whether you realize it or not, but there are always people that will support you and got your back no matter what.
Moreover, in spite of all the plan you have to reach your dreams, your goals, you need to be ready for all the obstacle and problem that you might face and always try to overcome that as soon as you can. Because even if it turns out in a different direction, it will be another good one. Another experience that shaped you, into who you are right now, into a better you in the future.
